I see her beauty and I am filled with fear.
I see her innocence and I get overwhelmed with anxiety.
Because I know this world is Ugly. Because I know that there are people with bad intentions. Because I know that we are not promised a life of safety and comfort.
I never knew such a love that is followed by the whispers of such an intense worry. And it is a challenge I face with every decision I make.
We have been called to be different. And it is important to us, that Joss learns beyond her comfort zone. It is important for us for Joss to see a world beyond the safe one we create for her. And it is important to us that she be a part of a movement to Save the World.
We aren't super heroes. We have no magic. But we have the passion to Love outside our borders, and with that come risks no mom really wants to take.
And sometimes... I wonder, how less scary my life would be if she wasn't here.
I've been given a gift. A gift that radiates a Love extended to me, that no matter what happens in my life or in hers, I was LOVED. A gift that pushes me to Love beyond my own understanding. And a gift that shows me what Love really means.
She has taught me what Sacrifice really means. Her bond to me illustrates a glimpse to what John 3:16 intends to give.
And because of that... I can let go and give back. Because I can't hoard the gift that I've been given. She was meant to be Loved by me, and she is meant to love others in return.
Fear will not contain my love, and Fear will not bind her back. She is meant to do great things as I am meant to inspire her to.