I've recently been flirting with the idea of saying "goodbye" to this blog of mine. And the acceptance that life will be just as full, if not fuller without it has been quite freeing.
My biggest investment to this blog as been my vulnerability, my honesty, and my story. And it has really helped me process a lot that my mind has been going through, but now, I think I'm done. I feel like I've grown enough now where I can embrace a quiet little life, that has no outlet for others to peer into.
Basically, I've come to desire intimacy and privacy. This blog has represented me, but it has never defined me, though at times I thought it did.
I'm ready to acknowledge that just because I don't publish it here, doesn't mean that it is less important to me.
There is a lot my family is invested in. And a lot that I desire to remain special between us. There are a lot of things that my family is ready to dive into head first, but keep private. I'm ready to transition into hopefully a more intimate person.
So I thought it would mean that this is the end...
But I don't think it is. I'm ready for this blog to be a fun passing outlet for me. Something that doesn't take my time by investing, building, and creating, but instead use at my leisure and acknowledge that if I want to post an updo post, it doesn't make me any less involved in Social Justice issues as the next person.
My blog or your blog doesn't define who we are. I've come to accept that just because you might post light, fun, silly, or sometimes shallow posts, doesn't mean that that is who YOU are as a person. This blog is just a piece at things I think or are interested in, not who I am. And I realize that means it isn't who you are.
So I'm done seeing this blog for more than what it is.
Which might mean less posts, but that's a good thing, right?! Because the silence for me here, means more life out there.