Friday, November 9, 2012

My Little Girl // Almost 3 Years Later

 It didn't seem that long ago that I was waking up to the sound of my husband firmly informing the nurse to bring our new baby to us.  I had been passed out for a couple of hours and had yet to consciously hold my little newborn.  The medication was wearing off and I was ready to imprint the image of my new family deep into my mind.  

It's been almost three years later and I have this stunning little girl who constantly has new ideas that usually just find ways around our current system of "no's and yes'".  She prefers Curious George over any other form of entertainment, and is learning how to let go of toys since mommy keeps selling them or giving them away.  She continues to flow with the rhythm of whatever her daddy and I dive into and she continues to teach us the meaning of Grace.
If you were to ask me 4 years ago what kind of mother I'd be I would have beautifully described a woman I would later discover doesn't even exist.  One that had it all together and lived solely for the children within her home.  The kind of mother I am today is one that sometimes bribes her daughter to take pictures, will prefer to sit on the couch and watch Pocoyo with her than doing the dishes or laundry, learns how to approach each moment with a new opportunity for growth, co-sleeps because those extra cuddles make the future more bearable, and the kind of mother who truly loves her child enough to know that she isn't mine forever.  

I don't always get it.  But what I do get is that I have a short time to teach her the ways in which we believe will lead her to a life that is full.  I have just a short moment in life to imprint love into her heart and show her just how to dance through some of life's toughest moments.  I have just a short time to call her my little girl.     

8 comments:

  1. Yes. Just...yes. I love her, I love these pictures (and the editing...yes please), I love that she still wears that jacket!!! I can't wait to see The Jossie, play with her, and bribe her right alongside you for photos!

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  2. What a beautiful little girl she is!! And I love that the mother you imagined 4 years ago doesn't exist...I've looked and never found one but the fact that you sit and watch t.v with her and play with her makes you an awesome mom! I bribe my kids to take pictures too!

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  3. I love the kind of momma you are. You are living and making decisions in GRACE and that's SO awesome. Also, I love that you co-sleep. I totally understand get it. I want to do that one day with my babies. xoxo

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  4. shes gorgeous. and the photos are amazing. I wanna cry :(. She has grown so much. I cant wait to have a daughter someday. Okay, I can wait until marriage DEFINITELY.. but after that I'm making a little girl LORD WILLING. haha

    ♥CheChe

    p.s. loved your honesty of realizing that "mom" doesnt exist. I have a weird picture in my head of how i will be and I have to keep surrendering it.

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  5. Oh! This made me tear up. My baby girl will be one in December, and I can hardly bare it. Your sweet one is beautiful as ever. Great post!

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  6. oh my gosh! She is so beautiful! and that scarf?! SO ADORABLE.

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  7. You have a very beautiful daughter. I especially love the last picture; she is so adorable on it.

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