STATS: Week 12
Doctor Visit: Still haven't had one yet. It doesn't freak me out so much as I haven't had scary pains of concern or that with Joss we didn't get to see a doctor until 17 weeks.
Clothing: Clothes are the bane of my existence! I live in big baggy t-shirts that have vnecks or low collars because anything close to my neck makes me gag, like I'm being choked. Can't stand clothes, but I have to wear them. BLAH!
Sleep: Oh how I love sleep. In bed at 7:30pm each night. When I am awake, I feel like I haven't slept in days. I'm just constantly exhausted. Constantly!
Food Cravings: My cravings have lessened a little for me these past weeks. I still have food desires, but it isn't too strong. Recently, I've been craving a lot of veggies, which I know is good. My favorite right now being CELERY. I could eat celery ALL day long. Sometimes with cream cheese, but most of the time, just crisp and cold. YUM! Chinese food has been another fave these past few weeks. And so far, although I still very much throw up, I can handle other foods.
Food Aversions: Italian. Keep me far far far away from Italian!
Symptoms: If it's listed I currently feel it.
Gas- Although I still feel so full of air, this hasn't been too intense for me. Often though, I find myself needing to throw up, I'll run to the sink and a big massive burp will release and I'll feel better. It's quite odd, but I'll take it!
Nausea- Still very nauseated. This hasn't gone away. In fact, I vomit more these past few weeks which I didn't know would happen. I thought I couldn't get more sick... WRONG.
Cramps- I start to get the feeling like I'm about to get a charlie horse in my calf, but with a little wiggle of the leg, it goes away. I've also been getting abdomen cramps, but nothing I'm too worried about. They usually co-align with my future need to use the restroom.
Emotions- So far, this has been in check. Sort of. These past weeks, much has happened for our family, so I'm not sure how much change vs. preggoness is the cause. Jon started school and is often gone most days for work then late night school. And I've been abnormally been fearing him not loving me. Irrational. I know. But I will often cry to him begging him to not cheat or leave. He wont. He hasn't. And he's done nothing to even instigate these emotions... but maybe the new unattractiveness of my part bloat, part excess old weight, part baby bump body and my own insecurities as we shift into a new season for our family are what is to blame. My irrational fears DRIVE HIM NUTS.
Digestion- I had a week where all this seemed to go back to normal... then bam! I'm in pain in a restroom and I find myself giving birth to my digestive system
Mama Instinct: Oh, I have no idea and it drives me nuts. I'm still trying to figure out if I have multiple little heart beats in there. Part of me kind of wishes so. And we playfully tried some of those old wives tales to see the gender of our babes... all tales point to a little boy. We'll see.
Family Impact: Jossie's been pretty impacted with my lack of energy. She so desperately wants to play, go outside, and venture off into imaginable territories. It's hard. She'll stand there by the sink and watch me throw up and then ask if the baby did it. She'll offer me food and ask if this is the kind of food the baby will like. She's already being so helpful. She goes to bed with me at night since Jon is off at school, and she'll turn to me, grab my face, and say "Mommy, I miss you when you're gone because I love you so much." She's tuning into her little heart and it makes me a very happy mama! Jon's getting better at understanding a little more of the symptoms I'm going through and tries to help. He's getting more and more gracious at treating me to little food like treats that he knows will help subside some of the symptoms. All around, my two might be doing better than I am with this new belly dweller (or two).
Most Looking Forward to: THE SYMPTOMS GOING AWAY and ME BEING ABLE TO GET BACK INTO PLAYFUL MOMMY MODE AGAIN!