I did however, catch some cuddles and kisses, then went and woke up daddy so mommy could work.
I got to my computer, turned it on, sipped a cup of coffee, turned on Google Reader and basically got my butt KICKED! In such a beautiful way.
How I got caught back up in it, I do not know. But I found myself back into my comfortable self state of selfishness and greed, all the while hearing the gentle whisper calling me to a deeper place of Love.
What we gave up years ago still does not seem attractive. And what he left behind when we died to ourselves is nothing to us anymore. But the temptations of what is in front of us in the culture we live in shines with such an image of desire that I drown out the whisper of Truth.
But when I read this post and this post, I was reminded of what I am called to do. And the whisper that resonates in my soul grew louder and louder.
Jon received another letter recently in the mail rejecting his application for hire. I know my husband has taken many blows to his self esteem every time he's checked the mail. And I can't count the number of times he's felt the heavy burden when people get on him about a job.
They mean well. I know they do.
But I have to say, that despite the punches to the gut or the kick in the esteem, my husband continues to push our family for more. For more of something outside of ourselves and into something more beautiful!
I first saw this video here this morning and absolutely HAD to pass it on.
We are constantly asking ourselves "Did I choose to love?" And often times that answer is no. But that Love is what pushes our family to give it all up and lose it all and do something Radical for the sake of Christ within US!